August 2022. Went to prison. Arrived on time and arrived in my designated room. Waited. I have been getting acclimated to waiting. When I arrive I advise the guard who calls the dorms to notify inmates I have arrived so they can be released to attend. The men I visit are in dorm M. I put my stuff on the table and sit down to wait.
A time to just Wait – What to do with a Wait- Spiritual Sharing during a Wait :
As I am waiting, a young man sitting in the room ask me a question? For the next hour I begin explaining who I am, why I am here and ask him a few questions about his situation.
Suffering – any suffering? Suffering can be a non verbal method of communications for those with eyes to see. Could Jesus have been speaking the whole time he was nailed to the cross? Was there blood coming from his head and into his eyes? Could it have been very painful? You bet!
Holy Smokes an hour evaporates: Then the young man tells me the inmate I am waiting on is in dorm K! I go to the guard and provide the name and dorm. Lord have mercy – the inmates shows up in less than 5 minutes. What you been doing? Evangelization is my description.
I change the subject to what has been going on with the inmate since I last visited? Oh boy did he have a story to tell. He checked out of his dorm signing out with the guard. Another three guards where near the exit and talking. One of the guards was assigned to his dorm and advised him to sign out. He responded that he had signed out. Apparently a misunderstanding took place resulting in some confusion and triggered human emotions for both men. Well bottom line it didn’t bod well for the inmate I came to visit. He ended up in a place called the hole. When he first was incarcerated he frequented the hole. But several years ago after finding his way back to practicing his faith – his behavior changed for the better. He shared although he was not happy about being placed in the hole he was calm. In fact he said the warden, deputy warden, chaplain and three other officers came to visit him in the hole. They wanted to know what’s up since this was not his recent behavior.
What to do with a Wait – Spiritual Sharing follows:
My question? I was there an hour before the young inmate reveled to me he knew where the inmate was I came to visit. Then the inmate arrives and tells me the story of his waiting in the hole and while he was waiting the visitors who came to check on him.
Waiting can be Spiritually Productive:
Seems to me the Holy Spirit was working through all the encounters that took place. And if I hadn’t been willing to take a risk and share my spiritual ministry with a stranger who does not attend church – well the Wait would have been just a Wait and then go home.
Sadness found a way into my heart! Again, I have failed to be brave! Ten years visiting prison the training grounds of the Holy Spirit. Oh so slowly yet surely teaching me the lessons hidden from the view of so many! Do you love me enough – the question in hiding! Walking through a room full of washed-out-looking young men! I could hear their cries with my eyes. The Spirit in inquiry took me on a journey! I began to ask older, long-time incarcerated men what’s up with those kids??? WHAT’S up with those KIDS???
“Can anyone HEAR ME” is the cry!!!????
Story: when these young inmates first arrive they put them in a padded room for the whole day! The description is they bounce off the walls all day long. Explosive is the energy held deep within the suffering youth!
Only late – yes very very late – does anyone enter the room and try to speak to these young men! The brave crusted, tough old inmates know instinctively to leave the kids bounce till they bounce no more! Only after they have worn themselves out is it safe to try to speak to them! Maybe – yes, maybe they will listen??
Hard Incarcerated Men Lead me to the Truth
It was the hardened, old journeyman inmates who told me these young men are mad as hell!!!! I wonder does anyone have ears? What are they so angry about????????????????
They are MAD as HELL at mom and dad!!!!!!!!!!!!! Emotional Anger!! Oh yeah, I am a deacon, so I am supposed to know something about mom and dad! What’s are we missing? Yes, one can find it “In the Beginning” God created man, male and female, he created them! God’s design was summed up using a spiritual concept using the term “One Flesh”! One can find it in the Book of Genesis.
Oh No! Discipline?
Discipline is the hidden secret that unites mom and dad, and a new born baby is supposed to change mom and dad for life! The definition of intimacy – not the one most people think of!!!
Children know instinctively that discipline is love! They will demand it and if they don’t get it they will demand it in more outrageous ways. “Do you love me enough” is the question. The kids know when mom and dad fail to the answer their question!! Do you love me enough to discipline me?
Yet, “discipline” in modern America is what? Let them raise hell and bounce off walls?? Whether in the prison or outside the prison the kids know and are asking the same question. Does anyone have eyes to hear? Have you watched the burning and looting on TV?
Where oh where are the Mothers and Fathers?
Where oh where are our Fathers and Mothers / moms and dads? Where oh where are our politicians? Oh gosh – yeah, they drank the modern cool-aid! Am I to speak out where people can hear?
Are you calling me, Lord? Have I failed, Lord? What am I to do, Lord?
I went to Mass yesterday – couldn’t understand a word of the Gospel nor the homily! Is this what our children are having to listening to? Exactly what is being taught? Dare we even ask the leaders of our church? Yes, Catholic children are being taught to day dream? Where oh where is the Shepherd? MIA! Am I all alone?
Use technology to draw our young people to hear and listen – yes to use their God given spirit. Big Screen TV and voice to Text conversion software.
It is long past time for real Fathers and Mothers to surround the Bishops castle and not allow any food in until the Bishop repents and begins to insist the Gospel (Truth) of Jesus Christ be preached so our children can actually hear it for real – (discipline/Love).
Jesus did! He came to testify to the Truth – to set us Free. He was killed by those who knew Him – NO MORE SERMONS FROM JESUS CHRIST!
Where oh where are our Catholic Leaders?
I hear there is at least one in the heartland of LBGTQ land – San Francisco! Thank you, Lord, for a man/Farther/priest/bishop/archbishop who is not a coward!
Angry young man – 19 4th grade children – dead plus the teacher! It hits home hard! My grand daughter will be teaching middle school next year! Lord Have Mercy on this nation – please please help us restore the one flesh and recognize we don’t own the tree! Please make haste and send us someone with the courage to speak the Truth again!
Years ago an old farmer built 3 chicken houses with an outside pen attached to each. Yes, the old Farmer wanted to teach his modern world children a lesson in TRUTH.
In one house, the farmer put all roosters. In the second house, the farmer put all hens. And in the third house, he put both roosters and hens.
Now the farmer’s children were being schooled in left-leaning schools, so he decided he could teach his children a real life lesson in Truth. He told his young, athletic son and his buddies could eat all the eggs that came from the rooster house. Then, the farmer told his daughter and her girl friends that they could eat all the young chickens that hatched in the hen house but not the eggs (you know, so the eggs could hatch).
To drive home his point further, the farmer stopped stocking the rooster and hen houses with new chickens. So what do you think will happen in those two houses? – Hmm the truth? What happened to the roosters in the rooster house and the hens in the hen house?
Many months and a few years passed as his children grew older. The Farmers asked his son, “Why is the rooster house now empty? What possibly could have gone wrong?” And to his daughter he asked, “Why is the hen house also empty? What could have possibly gone wrong there – we know they laid plenty of eggs?”
Thankfully the 3rd chicken house was still going strong producing eggs and plenty of chickens for the family and friends to eat. Imagine that in 2022!
The Gospel for Sunday – Catholic – April 3, 2022. John 8:1-11.
The Scribes and Pharisees brought Jesus a woman caught in adultery! Hey – where’s the guy? Oh heck darn – I have to remember it is the spirit hidden in the story that is the point. So what was it about the woman??? Well, women back in the day had no status or power!
It was a man’s world – right?? Oh, and today no change??? Ha ha we have a man winning the woman’s swim race in 2022! Testimony Truth turned Upside down? Modern man has set women back how many years??? Where did the feminist go? Is it safe to say the NCAA leaders are just like the folks we are speaking of in this old old old Gospel? Pretty much cowards I would say!
Just when are we going to see some real men and womanly courage arise? Oh yeah, the terms male and female not allowed to be spoken! Just who is it that will have the courage to stand up and speak up? Democrats? Joe the Devout Catholic? Nancy the say what Catholic? Oh my – who are they today? AND just where’s the Catholic Bishops hiding??
Bad boy – I am not supposed to be asking those questions!
The unspoken spiritual point:
Women in Jesus’s day had no status – indeed, they were the lowest of the low – well except for children! The people of His day confronted Jesus and thought they could trick Him into saying words that would get Him in real trouble! They thought they set him up wonderfully! Yep – just can’t fail!
So, what did He do when they challenged Him to reply to their setup question? What did they do? Maybe better said: what did Jesus do to help defeat themselves? Well, he defeated them without speaking a word. Yikes – silence is a deadly weapon! Instead, He bent down – lower than the lowly woman they brought before Him to be publicly be humbled! He bent down lower than she and said not a word!
He taught them by what He did!
And He made them wait! They had to begin to question themselves. What the heck is He doing? It had to infuriate their pious attitudes and challenge the spirit that lives within! Oh my – now what is He doing? Looks like writing in the sand.
Where is that? Oh – on the earth – yep, the earth! Darn – What? What was He thinking? In the Beginning – man was made from the what???? Do we know the answer? Does from dust to dust have any meaning in the modern world? He was silently yet powerfully speaking!
After a very very long and frustrating pause – He finally spoke up! You who are without sin – YES, that awful word “SIN” – can cast the first stone! Oh my Oh my Oh my! Yes it was the eldest who left first!!! Wisdom seems to be married to age! I can identify – yes I can! The elderly knew instinctively without a great deal of thought they were guilty of the modern day awful word “SIN”!
Then – yes even then the younger folks had to begin to ask themselves – what the heck? Why are they leaving? Yep, it took a little time – yes it did – silence speaks and penetrates pride! It is a spiritual thing, you know – it’s a spiritual message. Can you see it? Any chance your spirit works?
Finally, even the hardest of heart – you know, those with the stiffest necks – yes even they had to begin to depart from the presence of Truth!
Disney are your ears open and do they work – are you listening?
Talk about hard hearts and stiff necks – Oh my! People who use imagination to destroy Truth – consequently, there is this very special place reserved and set aside for them!
Only then did Jesus stand up – “Has no one condemned you.” He asked the lady with no power. “No one sir,” she responds! “Neither do I condemn you,” says the Lord! – Wow!
Now the punch line the modern world seeks to erase!!!!! READY?
Oh so very many miss the whole spiritual point! Yes, folks it is obvious the modern world misses it! “Go and sin no more.” Oh my – what the hey! What are some people at Disney going to do?
If I don’t go to Disney again – could it send a non verbal message? Yep, it could be powerful. Disney does not create or own children or the family! Keep on sinning and we are promised a proper reward! Hell and the Devil anxiously await our answer!
Hey y’all! Took a break. Received comments that my spelling is not so good! Yep, those folks are correct! What am I to do – what am I to do??? Yes, I am an old type-with-two-fingers yet go too fast. My mind is racing ahead of my hands and fingers! I am guilty!
Thank you to those who had the courage to criticize! I typically am thinking about what I want to say versus watching what it is that I am writing! Hence – spelling errors and words out of place and order. Heck darn! What do I do?
Time is a factor, and the modern world is fast paced! Yes, I need to slow down. Yet, buried in what I write is the spirit of the message, and I believe, in spite of my failures in typing etc., that the spiritual message may yet succeed! It is my HOPE!! Within the spiritual message lies hidden to many the TRUTH!
The Devil’s agenda is openly on display!
The modern world HATES that the objective man cannot change Truth! Ask some of the folks who work at Disney – the anti family, anti one flesh, married to the devil himself – group!!!!!! But, “HOPE” is what the modern world is in desperate need of! I sure Hope people find the courage to speak real Truth!
Goodbye Disney – hell’s fires await in anxious anticipation!
Have been visiting a State Prison for over ten years. When I first began I was very uncomfortable for many reasons. I had a million questions about just what was I getting myself into. I would go so far to admit the Good Lord really had to trick me before I volunteered. And it took me almost a full year to complete the necessary prerequisite work.
Submit Back ground paperwork and wait!
Attend an approved volunteer training session which I did.
It took so long that at one point I finally told the Good Lord — “you must not really want me to do prison ministry – I give up!!!”
Proof the Lord really does work – the following day the Chaplin from the prison I wanted to visit called me on the phone. He asks? Are you still interested in visiting the prison? Well yes is my answer. He gave me instructions to go to a local Sheriff’s office and ask to be finger printed and have them sent to the Department of Corrections. Done!!!
Hoops = Insult to Injury:
Hoops to jump through I call them! Paid for my own fingers to be printed. Yikes, I served four years in the military where they finger printed me. Then I spent another forty plus years working for the Federal government where I was finger printed and passed a background check. As if that wasn’t enough I have a back ground check done every year by my church! That’s the reason for the YIKES!!! Enough is enough!
I admit applying through State prison process was a test! But that wasn’t what tricked me! What was it that gave me the resolve to persist – that was the trick.
Lesson right our of scripture: We are a people in Waiting:
Patience my dear! Haha on me! Lesson learned. Persistence! Oh yea you want to know what the trick was!! Well you see there was this lady I know from church. She is a wonderful and joyful Lady. You see her husband was accused of taking funds illegally. He was charged and taken to court. The verdict was he was found guilty! Yes he was!
There was nothing I could to help this woman with her agony and her belief her husband was not guilty. I asked myself? What can I do to help? Prison ministry pope3d into my head and the journey began to find my way into prison ministry!
Here I am Lord send me come to mind!
You thought I was done: Haha on You!
I was taught many lessons in prison. The lesson I write about today is simply many living in freedom outside the prison choose to create and build prison bars around themself and do not realize they really could escape. Another scripture lesson driven home. Human nature would rather remain in bondage and slavery (to sin) than be free. Freedom is in fact a scary reality for us humans!
Every time Jesus walked into a room his first words were – “do not be afraid.”
The Pandemic – The Pandemic:
As always the Truth is always the Truth and eventually will escape the clutches of the corrupt! Happening Now! Wow the heavy cost to a free people – fear used as a weapon to build bars and imprison the masses. Shut down the small business owner while allowing the mega corporations open doors!
Do our Politicians believe in our Republic – No! Dictatorship Yes!Corruption Yes – Freedom No!
I ask the Reader – do you want Freedom and Liberty or do you want to empower to replace the Declaration of Independence, the constitution and the Bill of Rights with Communism?????
This is a heart attack City moment in the History of the Nation built upon self governance, principles and values that do not change over time or the technology advancements. Truth awaits your answer!
Went prison on Friday. Arrived inside prison at 09:30 AM. Guard announces Catholic Service building ##! No one shows up! Sitting in chair by a large glass window looking out into prison yard with multiple walkways. Individual inmates keep checking in – reporting for a multitude of reasons. So what would you do?
Man Oh man don’t I have a lot of things to do?
Well I have been doing this for a few years! Most days I just tell the Lord I have a lot of things I would rather do! Through the years I finally learned the lesson I surrender – I was sent to learn!! OK Lord -,just what is it you have in mind for me today???? Should I stay or should I go? If someone had come I would surely stay!!
Just sitting quietly in silence: No talk-en! Non Verbal!
So I just sat, watched and prayed funny prayers – like – so what you trying to teach me today Lord? I look up at the clock – 11:00 AM. Then I zone out! – haha – day dreaming – next thing I know I look up and there stands the inmate I came to see! He tells me I didn’t know you were here. I have a court appointment I have to make – (in prison video zoom court) appearance. In the blink of an eye he’s gone!
Just watching behavior in the Yard – Guide Dog Training:
Been watching inmates training guide dogs! Did you know they do that? After a while one of them brings his dog into the building I am sitting. Walks up hall and comes back. Stands at door looking down hall. Then he asks me! Hey are you a priest? Oh shucks – I forgot I was wearing a black shirt with a white Roman collar! I realized my presence was talking while I was silent. Non verbal communications is working all the time. Careful what you do cause people are reading your message all the time. So respond – no I am a deacon but want you to know I will be coming every Friday at 09:30 AM. Are you Catholic? The guys says yes and I have been waiting for you! I will be there next Friday!
The Spirit of God is working full time – yet
Did you know dog spelled backwards spells God? Not just any dog but a guide dog! What do you have in mind for me today Lord comes to mind! I am just sitting there waiting, doing nothing and the spirit that has many hiding places is working in ways we can seldom see. Was I being productive I ask??? Well before can I stop thinking about the dog inmate – the first guys shows up again and the prison guard (human) opens the library so we can pray!
A Room Full of Books – Full of Words – Just patiently Waiting:
Do you know a library is room full of books full of words just waiting around for someone to pick them up so just maybe the spirit hiding the words can be set free to reveal a message spirit hidden within? The first inmate shares a little about his court date. Still on track for a release date March 1, 2022. He will have been 34 years incarcerated by then. He tells me he is afraid of freedom! And he shares he hates the word discipline! Oh boy I am in trouble! I had just told him the word discipline meaning is love! Wow are we on different pages! I ask him what did it take for Jesus to go to Jerusalem where he knew they would crucify him! What did he exercise? And I asked him to consider it’s not the word – one must search the spiritual meaning of the word is hidden in the spirit of the word! Jesus didn’t have to go to Jerusalem and he could perform miracles! So why did he not rebel! Ahh ha! Maybe He wanted to teach us the secret hidden in discipline is communicated through an act of love – to do what he didn’t have to!
Could this be for you and me?
For each of you and me! The inmate told me he would reflect and pray about the word disciple! You know while I was in prison I didn’t suffer crucifixion! I just sat waiting and the spirit hidden in the wait was working the whole time!
I wish you a very Merry Christmas December 25, 2021 and a Happy and prosperous New Year 2022 with new adventures in growing into young women!
In every life time darkness invades life from time to time. Hope always shines forth in the midst of darkness. This Hope can lie hidden for years! Love is communicated through the gift of Free Will we call choice. The great difficulty for humans is the freedom and willingness to be open and actually begin to search for the spirit of Hope buried in the crucifixion story. Love is communicated by surrender to the spirit of Truth. Truth serves as a mirror and one can not escape the image of the one looking back. Humanity choose to crucify the one who came to testify to the Truth.
Hey, this is TC Meuninck a Convention of States Volunteer veteran who has been involved since sometime in 2014. I suspect I have acquired a rocky road reputation among some. I have been dismissed a second time from the COS Georgia Team.
Why was I fired / dismissed.
We all wear tinted glasses – Values Unseen. Let me begin by asking for forgiveness should I trespass on one of your values. And I express thanks to those who will read this letter! And I even thank those who dismissed me. They served as the necessary motivation for me to begin to address the emotions hidden and the root cause of the upset among the people with-in the Convention of States Leadership. Confrontation is not without hardship and misunderstanding. Yet it is confronting misunderstanding that controls the key to opening Truth’s door.
There really has always existed a generation gap of understanding and the maturity of human individuals that affects what is taking place below the surface in this nation.
Scripture offers help and hope humans can open a doorway to better understanding. I need a divine miracle as I attempt to explain the complexity of God’s design of humanity. To gain the greatest benefit of this letter, I suggest a minimum of three people from three different generations read and then discuss its contents. Haha what a test! Each generation wears Tinted Glasses – Values Unseen.
In the 1980’s I didn’t have clue what the hidden forces that were driving the upheaval taking place in our nation way back then. My most difficult task is to make an effort to avoid triggering and tripping all over the hidden mine fields of emotions and values buried within each human person. Every human has values set long ago that serve as automatic triggers. Yep, tinted glasses – values unseen. This is a test of maturity for the reader and for myself. Please don’t throw this message away. It may very well be the most valuable and greatest contribution I can make to the Convention of States Project.
In the Beginning:
The starting point was in the beginning. If man had never sinned, we would not know God as loving, just and we would never know him as a merciful God. Oh necessary sin of Adam! Without sin forgiveness and mercy are unnecessary. This does not mean it is better to sin (Rom. 6:1), but it does mean that it is a great mystery of love in which we are get caught up (Rom. 8:28-39).
Attempting to wrap one arms around mystery is perhaps what this nation is all about in the first place. We are all set up. While Jesus was still hanging on the cross before he died he spoke these words. “Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing.” And they cast lots, dividing up His garments among themselves.
Those passages are indeed hard to grasp and explain. They are spiritually woven together into a single threaded garment and that can not be separated. Everyone wears Tinted Glasses – Values Unseen.
In the Beginning tells the Story: There were powerful symbols used to define the original problem. God created man, placed man in a perfect garden where there was a single rule. Do not eat from the Tree of knowledge. Later we hear this snake shows up that played a central role. Yep, Temptation entered the story in the beginning.
Who owns the tree – God or man? Humans throughout history have never escaped the history that took place in the beginning. In 2021 ownership of the tree defines the War taking place in our nation!
Am I really the problem?:
Some might conclude it’s obvious, since I have been fired twice. I must really be a problem person without hope. I expect there exists numerous negative adjectives and perhaps volumes of written snippets, perhaps even my own words without context, used to describe me and perhaps my behavior as a member of the Georgia COS Team. It is highly probable “Team worker” is not one the adjectives used as a positive in regard to me individually. One of my personal characteristics is I don’t give up easily. That is the only explanation why I am spending my valuable time addressing a seemingly hopeless objective. My experience has been many people simply do not share that ability, maturity or wisdom.
If you check my Social Capital record there must be someone in COS who would recognize I have been a worker / supporter even when local / regional leadership was at best indifferent. This letter should be proof I didn’t quit, rather I was ostracized. Unfortunately, much of my time in Georgia was during a very long period of few volunteers due to failed leadership. Extremely few people who know me to stand up for me. That is a hard pill to swallow! Yet it serves as the necessary incentive to dedicate the time to respond with this letter.
What are the Values of the Convention of States?
What is contained in this letter is perhaps far more valuable than all the SC points accumulated in my profile. I am guilty of taking risks. Yep I can dream someone with an open mind and heart might just read what I have written and even respect and reflect upon it?
Seven Years: Scriptural Reference:
Seven years serving is kinda a magic number if one is open to scripture – maybe? I pray someone within the Convention of States leadership will be open and take the time necessary to read and try to digest what I have written. The human condition described within is not simple theory and it has an ancient spiritual nature that is well hidden from the view of those unwilling to take a deep dive into God’s design of humanity from the beginning.
Background and Baggage –> No one Escapes:
So it is with this background and my human baggage, I begin to try and address the Convention of States leadership failure. Hiding within the management design structure of the COS role lives a natural human trap for people, even people willing to work hard to fall into. Yes a designed in trap for Humanities original flaw few can see and many cannot escape.
My experience with a limited number of Convention of States leaders is many have very sensitive ears. I spoke up and encountered rejection! Well to begin with, I acknowledge I am not perfect! And because of who I am and what I have been through the following statement could easily be applied — Who the hell do I think I am?
The Structure Design Flaw Empowers the Original Human Flaw within:
To be clear, it is the organizational structure itself (tinted glasses) that lends a hand to the original human flaw, I seek to address. It stands on the associated original flaw in humanity that trips us all up. It is not and has not been or intended to dress down individual persons. Oh boy is that a hard one to avoid! Many or even most are unaware of how humans get setup for conflict from the beginning.
Every human created structure is subject to unknowingly being set up with the potential to create human conflict and failure: Yes it does! And some COS leaders get my criticism easily confused with the Vision of COS, i.e. Michael Farris or Mark Meckler.
I was one of the first people to begin posting on the first Team Party web page Mark Meckler setup years ago. That is when I first was really beginning to struggle with the question what is the upset? A vision is not an organization structure. Organizational structures are the definitions / limits of roles, teams, the who and how to manage them etc. A vision is rather a hoped for destination, a goal or even a dreaming the structure is setup to achieve. A vision seeks to address the tint in ones glasses.
Self Governance Assures Human Conflict:
Oh My!!! The definition of Self-governance in and of itself assures and creates potential conflict between people who actively participate. Our founders struggled themselves and butted heads often. We so easily forget that reality. It wasn’t until they began to pray the miracle of the 5000 year leap happened.
The local COS leaders people I have spoken with have not able to follow the message I have and am attempting to deliver, but rather trip over what I can only guess is a perceived personal attack or a challenging voice they are unable or unwilling to grasp or understand. Heck to be sure I am not perfect. Oh so many before me have tried to explain the why’s of human nature! Please do not stop here!
Further the reader should know I am tired and worn from working so long almost alone and the recent rejection I have encountered. Equally I am worn out for personal family health issues. Being frustrated by local COS leadership in and of itself creates intrinsic human road blocks. I acknowledge when I am tired, I am particularly capable of short circuiting my own message delivery. At times my words serve as a hook to others emotions which can cause others to over ride their won ability to use logic.
So Here, we go – How easily do we get pissed Off?
Let us begin! Does COS really believe in self governance? Why then does it have a system that it created to work as Command and Control of Roles? Where is the balancing mechanism as the framers created to balance humans natures weakness to fall into corruption, power and control — human natures desire to rule? The tree – the tree!!! There is no room in self governance for a ruler – yet the way the structure is set up and applied – probably not so much on purpose, (My way or the highway – is not a Team!) I hope this rings a lot of bells. The Three branches were chosen as a method to balance corruption. Corruption human natures original desire to rule, seek power and control require a balancing mechanism.
There is no room for me in the Georgia COS Team! Much of my most recent time with COS there were a very limited number of volunteers. I took ownership for multiple roles. Finally followed by a surge that created a natural tripping situation that has lead to the idea of staying in your lane.
Almost in the blink of an eye the one I trained is demanding a conference call with the leader. Obvious to me immediately is the idea of a Team is in trouble! Seems that the ownership I took and the roles I had were just a facade by my leader. Not your turf! Not once but twice this same leader participated in the door being closed! I am SOL – Balancing – where is it for me to go?? I must be crazy for I am still trying to communicate. But maybe it’s not just for me – could it be possible I am speaking for all those who silently left long ago and those yet to do the same?
What does it take to get a person to take the Deep Dive
Scripture: In the beginning – in the perfect Garden the first of humans sought power, control, and knowledge hidden symbolically in the tree in the garden. The key word here is hidden / unseen / a deep dive is required to discover it. Well in today’s world it has been surfaced and we can all describe it using many terms without making the association to our human condition. Deep State, WOKE, One Party Rules, Socialism, Communism and on and on.
To think it does not exist within COS Leadership is to be Naive:
The structure of roles I am referring to can be described as a military command and control. In the military the people who lead and serve – FIRST are first sent to school where one could say the person is broken down and rebuilt to understand the how, why and when it is necessary to lead.
Such a process is simply not practical with volunteers who show up with tinted glasses and values that are hidden even from themselves. Who knows the background each person has? It simply set up a tripping stone for many. Volunteers come with all sorts of hidden expectations. COS U can not uncover these expectations. Relationship building is where the secret is hidden path to uncover them. And that is no easy task for humans. Command and Control can easily drive a wedge of silence. How unusual it is for one to speak words the leader doesn’t want to hear. Everyone can get offended! And many are simply unaware of the impact of the original flaw.
“I am a good person” most people say & no deeper thought is undertaken!
How do I get someone in COS Leadership to listen??? So far I must conclude I am a total object failure. I am not writing this to get anyone fired or removed from a role. I recognize the original flaw that exists is in every human and exists in me. My track record should suggest I am not afraid to work and I am not afraid to speak up. Am I a fool to persist??
So who is going to shut me up and shut me out next?
Isn’t that what our founding fathers confronted in themselves – human nature’s original flaw? They were an extraordinary group of people with a very broad knowledge unparalleled in history. They instinctively recognized the original spiritual flaw in humanity to fall into corruption we call power and control. How did they overcome it?
Oh my Prayer! The necessary reflection needed to reveal the tint! Dare I say it? Can you bare with me — I am a trouble maker – bad boy! Explosive is I!
Human values hiding in tinted glasses can not be easily seen. They are more like mines hidden in a field and you don’t discover them until you step on one and get a reaction. At that moment the strong human emotions react ones ability to think logically evaporates.
Who was Jesus?
Forgive me. The Story of Jesus Christ comes to mind. The good and gentle Jesus who wouldn’t hurt a flea – right? He told us he came to testify to the the Truth. Oh my, the people of his day where so happy with him they had to find a way to shut him up! We should know the story.
Then from the cross he spoke these words “forgive them Father they know not what they do. With those words Jesus takes us on a trip back to the very beginning hoping we the living might revisit the symbolism of the tree.
Forgiveness is where the secret answer is buried! We are watching a spiritual war take place between in our nation – the “WOKE” and the “AWAKE” – only after the emotional upheaval runs it’s course – is forgiveness – the answer to finding where unity lives. Dare I say this? Not everyone will find it!
I am seeking to open ears so they can hear more than the words, but the spirit hidden within every human – we call it the image of God – ones soul!
The Valley of Tears:
I must admit I could not have written this the letter as a young man or even when I was 50. If you can bare with me, My life’s journey has taken me through ten years of ministry to people with HIV/AIDS in the 1990’s. It was the period we simply did not know how the disease was spread. We now know, needles and annul intercourse were the two primary methods of transmission.
This ministry took me to the place I call my discomfort zone. I would even say I had to be tricked by the Lord to start this journey. It took place in the bowels of Atlanta where few ventured. For ten years I listened to what I would describe as the cry’s coming from the depths of the speakers soul. So many young people were fast forwarded to mid life crises and facing death. Mostly, younger men, homosexuals and drug users.
Abruptly around the year 200, this ministry disappeared. I watched people with AIDS get up off their death beds shortly after they started taking the AIDS cocktail. After which the people in crises became stealth again. Yet the incidence of AIDS / HIV has not diminished the least.
One Flesh – Unity Broken -> Cry’s of the Soul heard in Prison
Well the good Lord wasn’t done with me and I was tricked into going into prison for one reason only to discover over time the Lord sent me there to teach me another. I had to be taught because I was slow of learning and hard of heart. You might just hear that description of me today.
For the next ten years, I listened to the cry’s that come from the souls of men incarcerated. Upon entering the prison I walked through a room full of young men – juveniles – kids (70-80 of them). This experience prompted me to begin asking lots of questions to the old inmates about what was going on with these young men.
Simply put, these young men were described as being mad as hell and bouncing off walls! Who are they mad at was my question? The answer for me was 50% expected and the other 50% ya gotta be kidding me. #1 Dad and unexpected was #2 Mom.
Forgive me again. This took me back to the story “in the Beginning” and the concept of one flesh! This spiritual one flesh concept is not simple to digest but young people’s spirit get it! Somehow the soul of young people without the guidance of a unified one flesh understand something is amiss and has failed them.
Discipline = Love:
When Dad and Mom are together / unified discipline works. More discipline communicates the hard to grasp word love! Do you love me enough to stop me is a cry coming from deep down in the souls of young people in the USA. In 2021 young people across this nation are (burning, looting, beating people up) screaming the same message and the answer so far is? “NO”. Same kids – just some are incarcerated, some released and some just out on the streets!
Race or the color of ones skin has no bearing on this cry! This spiritual “one Flesh” design simply has escaped modern man’s intellect or attention all the while the kids are acting it out.
The One Flesh is MIA and is under siege in a spiritual war taking place below the surface of everything! Please open your ears! The cause of the upset was just described.
Woke or Awake?
The “WOKE” folks want to fix the problem by destroying the family! Man seeks to recreate God’s design with man’s design which will only make things worse.
Gosh, I really do hope someone in leadership in the Convention of States can hear the spirit of voice crying out from within American kids today – the future America. There exists a multitude of colors and tints the seer can not see.
Come back to me with all your heart requires a trip through the desert! Do we still believe in the freedom of religion which exists every hour of every day?
My hope is the Convention of States Leadership can find the courage and wisdom to look in the mirror of Truth so COS doesn’t fall into exactly the same trap we are trying fix!
Another Voice – A Secular Voice:
More to consider: A secular teaching nails the subject: and our founders had to understand it because they had a set of broad / rare experience knew it had to be addressed.
Morris Massey is a behavior scientist and taught at Colorado University. I encountered his teaching in a Video titled “What you are is Where you were when” after the Air Traffic Strike of 1981.
In my words it address’s the stealth method human values get set in concrete – if you will the built in reason in God’s design a generational conflict is assured. Woke versus Awake 2021.
Before the Air Traffic Strike strike of 1981, I heard and observed leader and after leader say, I have addressed it, it is taken care of, I have it covered. From the lowest level to highest level – I worked in the busiest ATC Facilities in the world. The people who worked there were indeed dedicated and very sharp individuals, yet we all got caught. I can not forget. It dramatically impacted and changed my life, especially the next 20 years.
I spoke these words to a COS Leader and I got fired. Who the hell I am?
For the most part the American public was not fully aware of what the primary objective of the Air Traffic strike in 1981 was really all about.
Power and Control:
It should ring loud in our 2021 ears. PATCO the controllers Union had affiliated with the AFL/CIO. The AFL/CIO hosted meetings for controllers families prior to calling the strike date so as to prepare families for the political war. It was done so well some controllers and even wives were persuaded (essentially what’s the News Media & social Media doing today?).
The stealth objective of the strike was about power and control. This should strike a raw nerve in the leadership of COS. The AFL / CIO had control of trucks / ground transportation and the shipping industry. Now if only the AFL / CIO had control of the aviation system they could shut down the whole country.
Luckily for America, Ronald Reagan was president. He did not fire them as everyone thinks! Instead, Regan used their oath such that they fired themselves to prevent the question from being decided in the court system.
A Question is neither positive or negative:
When a COS leader tells me regarding a volunteer’s activity, I have addressed it, I have handled it, it has been taken care of it – I listen with perhaps unique ears! Any question or skepticism on my part is viewed as a betrayal, lack of support and a gross violation of trust. I am indeed a pain – how dare I question! Yep I got fired again! Yes I did – and I ask who has ears and is COS leadership Open? But I doubt that was the only reason.
I got into trouble because Team requires Team building! During the recent surge of people in Georgia not a single discussion took place regarding how to build a Team. Instead creating lanes where one shall not trespass was the focus. Lanes don’t create a Team. I suspect this letter is way outside any lane the structure of COS has set up. Writing this letter is way outside any role I have seen. Just who the hell do I think I am writing this letter? Get back in your lane!
Human Stinky Pride:
Who ever the reader is. I thank you for hanging in here with me this far.
This is not easy stuff, human stinky pride lies below the surface and like values is so very hard to see – including within me! I persist against a stealth woke invasion that seeks to divides our nation. It didn’t begin yesterday. And it lies hidden within human’s if COS can be honest.
How can I know this? Listen to Morris Massey who created a video “You are who you were when“. A very long time ago I had my children watch this video.
He is an unusual teacher. Speaks at three times the normal rate in an hour video. He has hit the nail of the human journey to truth on the head!
Morris Massey Theory and Teaching:
Here is a link where it is possible to obtain / watch this video and others he created. Cost to view Video (year 100 plays = $425, week 30 plays $295)
Morris’s observation is the human person’s values are set during the period a child is roughly 9-11 years old. By the time a child is 11 years old they are wearing “Tinted Glasses – Values Unseen”! Then we become adults who look at the world through the eyes of an eleven year old and are unaware of it.
What does it take for a human to revisit their own values set? Morris Massey – values can only be reviewed if a significant emotional event takes place. An upset so significant it sends the person on a deep dive search into one’s own soul for the cause of the upset = values!
When are Values Set Again?
Between the ages of 9 and 11. The Schools dummy – the Schools, are operating mostly outside the influence of parents. Change children’s values at a young age. I still remember Bill Ayers. The effort to change young peoples values started while I was a still a young man. How many people have woken up to the reality a war has been underway in the class room for ages. Add to this mix, rapid deterioration of the family unit, parents who are either separated, divorced or so focused on a career no one is paying attention to the values American children are unconsciously choosing.
Significant Emotional Events are assured in the years to come. School Boards control this most critical thinking part of future generations.
I have been fired – I created a significant Emotional Event:
My way of describing values is they are like putting on a pair of tinted glasses through which one views the world and using that tint to judge what is normal and right.
This is such a powerful reality. In prison young men are mad as hell at their parents who were supposed to be teaching and disciplining them during the ages of 9-11. Parents who have been largely MIA during this critical period 9-11 and many for years after. This one flesh impact is largely ignored in 2021! Are we surprised we have such an upheaval in the whole world today? Are we surprised that even people who mostly agree still encounter a conflict of how they see the world? Should are we prepared for the future? It is going to get far worse before it begins to get better?
We should not be! But largely many modern America leaders especially political ones don’t seem to have a clue! Or worse maybe some do and they are using it against us.
The objective of the tempter is for man to take ownership of the tree.
Gosh I hope someone can follow me!
When I question or criticize a leader I am deemed a betrayer, not a team player, and get out of my lane – I own the lane. Am I surprised I have been fired / dismissed / removed from association with COS? No I am not! Is that how I want it? No it is not!
If some writes I am offended shouldn’t we conclude they were? Wouldn’t it be better if we understood somehow we tripped over a value. And is one a betrayer if they have questions?
At this point what options do I have? Write this Letter! I continue to take risks to open individual doors closed. Currently, I am powerless. I have no authority to cause anyone to listen. I can’t help or assist in fixing a problem when I am judged a betrayer! Just how does one open the door of one whose emotions that have been hooked and another has chosen to close the door.
Twice now, I have been successful at getting the door shut on me. I am on the outside – who cares?
Do COS Volunteer Leaders have the ability to accept criticism?
Not so much in my experience! Is there a role for someone like me COS? Perhaps not?
We are in the midst of a surge of new people signing the COS Petition and volunteering! Why??? What was the cause???? Can the reader be honest???? Was it COS Leadership????
Or was it the Significant Emotional Event the far left Democratic party folks created? Morris Massey nailed it!
If one can watch his video to the end, he provides the basic building block solution! Love which is largely misunderstood in our nation. Discipline is love!
Just how to discipline is the trick hidden from the view of most. Part of the answer is hidden in The principle of Three: Leadership roles need a balance of a minimum of 3 to balance human weakness if sufficient volunteers exist. Balance the hidden values and human natures tendency toward original sin we call power and control.
A 5 Thousand Year Leap for humanity:
An unusual group of humans from many nations were thrown together in a new land. This group of people had acquired an assortment of knowledge of history and governance few people in history had mastered. They were living in the midst of a significant emotional event. The essential necessary incentive to take the deep dive occurred which ultimately created a new form system of self governance.
Fast forward, they managed to articulate timeless principles upon which this nation’s foundation was set to serve it’s people. Humanity throughout history can not escape the history that took place in the beginning. The new form of government recognized this reality and created a system to balance human nature’s flaw.
Am I finished:
The current leaders for Georgia – are not open and are unable to listen to me! Their values have been hooked and only great maturity and wisdom can change that. I would encourage being cautious at this moment. At this time, I see no role in Georgia for me without the support of someone outside the three people working in Georgia. The reader is the first person with potential to discern what I have written and what future if any might exist for me.
Is this letter complete? Not at all! It’s just the best I can do at the moment. It’s intent is to open minds and create an awareness COS cannot operate as our current political system does, as political correctness and parties do, or as unaware humans do. A greater understanding of how self governance works within the human condition.
Can the reader look at the COS structure and recognize the flaws of the human condition do not have an adequate – balancing of corruption design? A method to balance human natures willingness to unconsciously drift into the command and control flaw sought and found.
It can be found in the process (never ending process) to build Team relationships of people with an emphasis on being open, aware, having ears to hear and aware of the original flaw. It is at great risk when individual people are unwilling and unable to listen and who seek to run the show! Stay in your lane can exclude the spirit of Team!
I am Guilty:
Now I am locked out of the Team! Who can I talk to? And just why should I persist?
The surge / the recent out pouring of interest in the Convention of States Project was not triggered by Convention of States Leadership – rather it was triggered by a Significant Emotional Event caused by those whose VALUES do not share in the spirit of Freedom and Liberty.
Please let that reality sink in! Thankfully, many volunteers had prepared the Convention of States Project beforehand to provide a channel that outpouring of energy and emotions could flow into a logical plan. Please tray and grasp – the driving force is emotions and energy. We must convert it to Logical Team Building!
Hidden Values Violated- Red Flag Missed:
I created an emotional upset for at least three people. How do I know? I trained one person, assigned them every role I had, and empowered them. Then one day they stopped communicating with me long before I created the most recent upset. We were in equal roles. A Team work concept was not the objective when people stop talking. That was a RED FLAG missed by my leaders. I understand the idea of empowering people. Turn them lose. But what at what expense to Team work and unity? It was replaced with stay in your lane. That’s just not a Team. Forgive me for my candor but that is just another victim of the original flaw.
All the people I worked with have talent and are dedicated. I have two objectives. To try and lay out the hard to see problem below the surface and try to minimize the harm to the people who have chosen to remove me. I have no doubts the Convention of States people I have encountered are dedicated, hard working people who seek to do the right thing.
A New Leader was thrown into the fray:
Yes a brand new leader was thrown into the fray! This created a significant emotional event for him as well – he stepped into the middle of a mess that needed to be addressed and he got his value system hooked as well.
I do not seek the removal of any of the people who are so upset with me? Every effort should be made to keep them engaged.
So why the heck am I writing this response? Well it is the only path to achieving unity of purpose. There is no short cut. This nation and the world are at War! We are in a spiritual War. It started in the very beginning and continues. It is buried in God’s design for human’s and vastly complicated by modern man sub coming to the temptation to take ownership of the tree. The spirit of God’s design is not easy to find in the first place. Unity gets trampled upon and an effort to understand God’ design referred to as one flesh tossed aside.
What a Mess! Summary of Observations:
The Convention of States Leadership I have dealt is very sensitive and easily offended. More subject to emotional reactions than logical ones. Candor from me is not encouraged.
If we, not sure I can include me, are going to address and succeed at restoring self governance, we can not behave or become like the people who oppose us. We can not encourage people who seek to rule. We must find the courage and wisdom to reach out beyond ourselves – yep – if you can’t talk to me – I am not the problem.
COS must be willing and able to take the steps necessary to follow through with creating a significant em0tional event for itself that will cause people to look in the mirror of truth. It is the necessary path to review one values and open to door to the possibility to conversion.
Convention of States needs a Mirror:
I imagine, I have may have stretched the reader far beyond their comfort level? Welcome to my world of entering a room full of HIV/AIDS people not knowing how it was spread, and entering a prison hearing the doors slam as you walk in. And in both cases listening for months the cries coming from deep within the souls of people searching for answers.
Yes America is searching for her soul! Who are we? Who have we become? Is there hope for us? Are we willing to take the necessary deep dive into generational value gaps largely created by ignorance and years of silence? So many people left the Georgia COS Team without speaking up! Now you have one unafraid to speak up and I have been dismissed!
At the moment I am a COS supporting dead man walking, locked out, yet still working / writing, and wondering if anyone cares or has ears?
Thank you to anyone who has taken the time to reading all the way to the end! Lastly forgive me the many trespass’s inherent in my human weakness and associated human flaws!
God Bless you! I hope somehow I may have helped you understand you too wear a pair of tinted glasses. Not sure at all the Convention of States Leadership can find a role for someone like me who is not afraid to question!!!