Category Archives: Spiritual Reflections

Reflections

Still Under Development? Yep!:

Hey – What’s this all about?

Hey All:  I have been working on “theideacon.com” web site since 2011.  I am sure it is messy!  Many transitions / upgrades etc. etc.  Started this for my grand kids so maybe one day they could check out what I thought about things I posted here!  Was never intended to be perfect!

Reality is many improvements have been made to “WordPress.com” and all the associated plugins etc.  This is a learning by doing exercise!

Please Holy Spirit protect my back – Well I made it through a Knot hole!

But perhaps most important to me is to try and write according to the prompting of the Holy Spirit.  In 2011 I underwent my second open heart surgery.  My description was “I was pulled through a “knot whole”!

As a result I began to pray constantly why did the Good Lord kept me around?  Later after many weeks and months the Good Lord gave me a Vision to reflect upon.

The Birth of “theideacon.com”

Ah Ha – “theideacon” was born!  In this web site somewhere the reader will find a description of my vision and interpretation!

Forgiveness is found at the foot of the Cross:

Please please forgive me my human failures when it comes to writing, spelling, sentence structure, etc., etc..  I am a two finger typing and my mind are not in sink!  My mind does not think about what I just wrote in regard to correct writing discipline.  My mind frankly is racing way ahead on what might be written next!

Perhaps there-in Lies the Secret Message – Life Struggle with me Please:

If you struggle – well perhaps if you struggle – then perhaps we share the same spirit of struggle together!  It is the spirit hidden in the message I pray and hope to reveal!  God Bless anyone willing to enter the spiritual war I am attempting to put into words!

Just say “YES”:

November 26, 2022 – yes 11 years living a calling!  The key word is “YES” Lord!  He didn’t call me to be perfect – no he called me to seek perfection by taking the risks the Yes demands!  I am a work in progress – no apologies!

Wanna Help?  Am I crazy or what?  Oh Yea – open the doors and let the Holy Spirit in!

Where Oh Where is Raphael?

I discovered my Baptismal Patron Saint:

Help help help!!! I cry out with all my soul! I am calling to the wind, the spirit and breath of life to carry my plea to the ends of the earth! Help help help. My name is Michael given at birth yet delayed to this moment to recognize my calling. In the midst of the night my kin Gabriel I heard the hark as coming through my many intercessions to the Virgin!  Make haste our kin Raphael has been taken hostage by the spirit of “trans” seeking to detour souls on their journey home to the promised land.

Deception Evils Doorway:

Deceptive is that Spirit kin to the deceiver articulated in the story – “In the Beginning from which “original sin entered the world! Ah ha – yes luring souls including the tender vulnerable very young ever so slowly leading to the great abyss. Oh Raphael, Oh Raphael where oh where have you taken up hiding Raphael?

Bowels of the Earth – My Classroom:

Oh my cries my soul; For years my ears have heard the cry from the souls of men seeking the answer of just who they were created to be? To the bowels of the earth I traveled. My classroom of the spirit of creation is where few travel! Have you forgotten Raphael you are pure spirit created to lead and join prayers of souls crying out from the deeps of the their soul inhabiting earth seeking profound healing only found in the truth of God’s design in the beginning.

I need help! Yes I need help of souls with spiritual ears and eyes! Yes the spirit hidden within People – oh so often people who earnestly wish to follow the good shepherd yet seemingly blinded by the imagination and lure of the great deceiver to replace God’s tree with self! Imagination now used as a serious weapon of war seeking to fool and conquer the spirit of logic with selfie Truth! Hi tech has opened a new door diverting focus and attention away from ancient truth luring man’s nature to own the tree of good and evil! Today this weapon is placed in the hands of the very young and vulnerable!

The Walls of the One Flesh have been penetrated:

Oh my, oh my and even the old journeying on, separating truth and Creations design from reality. Oh so many have been lured by greater and greater numbers, especially the young holding in their small hands the newest device that has invaded the domain of the one flesh and stealthily seeks control over ones imagination – an imaginary Disney Land where all things are possible including the desire to extinguish the one flesh few in the modern world understand.

Thick Clouds cover the earth:

Hark – I cry in desperation! Can anyone hear my voice! Have the images of the deceiver world placed a thick layer of clouds over souls so thick eyes can no longer see and ears can not hear! Has this spirit of imagination been deceived leading souls and putting them to sleep? The Battle from the beginning has always been raging. But today it seems to have accelerated taking Raphael hostage! Has anyone see the great archangel?

Hidden Power of Imagination and Emotions Joined:

Oh so many others have been taken hostage as well by the power of imagination and emotions even penetrating and overtaking so many leaders of the good shepherd’s church!
Yes even some holier than thou followers cry in protest to the proclaiming of truth and are offended by any Rebuke. Rather they protest – seeking rather a voice that will entertain the imagination and speak to the spirit within a message the new born selfie god wants to hear! Oh my even some Cardinals, Archbishops and Priests tremble at the volume of the voice of imagination and emotion! Purse strings influence truth! For who exists in our modern world that is qualified to testify to the Truth reveled “In the Beginning”? Rather embracing Pilot’s words! Truth – what is truth! Spoken to the face of the one who came to testify to the Truth and was ultimately willing to be crucified in silence for speaking the message of truth clarified from the Beginning! Yet while hanging His spirit spoke volumes to the eyes open to read the discipline of love communicated through suffering! The secret doorway was reveled to spirits open and willing to enter the story!

I am Michael created to drive the demons of heaven and earth into the great abyss to save souls of man from following! Yet in this modern selfie world even I am in desperate need of human souls from the so very very old through the very very young to join me in prayer to save Raphael. And to pray to save those suffering from the delusions of the imagination driven by and embedded in the upheaval of emotions seeking free reign over the spirit of logic defining the very battle of this day – the war between the spirit and flesh that began in the very beginning of time.

Who will step forward and help me? I call upon angels, saints with wings and souls of pilgrims of earth on the journey home to kneel down this day! Pray I ask for the spirit and source of healing of the “trans” disease inflicted by the great deceiver, that seeks to destroy essence of the innocence of life from the cradle of the womb of creation and now targets the innocence of youth designed to be protected by the very spiritual nature of the one flesh!  I plead – am I alone? Who will pray with me for the healing of souls walking in the crises of the unseen war seeking the ruin and extinction of man, woman, male, female, boy, girl, mother, father, husband, and wife all the while taking dead aim at dissolving God’s design for – “the “One Flesh“!

Am I Michael walking alone? Is there a single soul who with the courage to support the creation of a spirit lead animation as in God’s spiritual creation with the potential to penetrate the imagination in spite of the great deceiver’s thick clouds that covers the whole world seeking lost souls!  And where oh where has Raphael been taken hostage?

The Truth will set you Free — Who spoke those words?

Amen!

Innocence Followed by the Fall Leading to Truth:

“In the Very Beginning”

“In the Beginning” the original story man is born into innocence!  As the story unfolds quickly follows the original fallYes it is a setup opening the door for redemption and the restoration of innocence.

“Longing for a Return to Innocence”

Ever since man longs to return to a state of innocence .

In the Garden:

In the Garden Innocence

Man – male and female are defined A seed provider and a womb capable of creating new life as a pair.  Yet to be complete the expression one flesh receives it’s true definition wrapped in a trinity of 3.  One man, one woman and the two united in spirit with the creator of all life.  A definition under attack by modern man.  The gift of free will under severe attack by the same deceptive spirit against the original design of the creator.  Man was unable to escape the lure of the deceiver and consumed the forbidden fruit.  Way back in the beginning.

Every Generation:

No surprise humanity continues to fall to same deceptive voice that captures mans yearning to self proclaim themselves owner of the original tree in the garden. The ancient story that setup the necessity of the creator sending a treasured first born spiritual gift to save man from himself!  Oh my – through the torture and unbelievable suffering that non verbally spoken the very words where forgiveness, healing and salvation lie in hiding!  Man’s Free Will demands suffering in order that man will seek truth beyond himself!

Solitude – Self Searching for Self:

In the Beginning was solitude.  One single man alone encountering God’s design in himself and all of nature!  It is not good that man should be alone!  Ah ha from one man came the second a female.  Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh.  Company at last!  They were destined to before a trinity.  One man, one woman plus one God with the power to instill the spirit of a soul that formed the definition of marriage united to the spirit – the single source of unity = a trinity – each of gift necessary for new life.  No other combination satisfies the spirit of the soul within.

The War In the Beginning Still Today

Any other combination is laced with dismemberment, confusion, self appointment in direct conflict with Truth!

Yes the War rages within humanity which seeks to overthrow the creation of God’s designMan claim’s ownership of the tree in the garden and quickly loses innocence!

Hidden within the Body

Man has an awareness of self” – conscientious – hidden in the spirit /soul of the man’s body the hidden image of God within!  Only man can cultivate the earth and discover the purpose of body and soul.  This process when it reaches maturity is referred to in human behavior as self actualizationtrue human dignity is found in the process of work!  the process of work entail the use of gifts and talents which when used one discovers the “pursuit of happiness” which is never ends.   This discovery is equivalent to the the “Breath of Life” and being born again.

The Original Breath of Life Faces Death

In the Beginning God blew into the nostrils of man the breath of life!  Yet in waiting the forbidden fruit takes on greater meaning between Life, death and the hope of immorality.

In summary an analogy of the raw material used to make bread and wine define the process of man discovering self!  A grain of wheat must be crushed and broken in the process of becoming the unity of flour that gives birth to bread by being heated.  Food for the body and soul.  Grapes as well must be crushed and broken to release the juice necessary in the process of making wine.  In both cases each individual – the essence of each must die to give birth, merged into a necessary unity, a oneness of being, necessary for the birth of a new wine.  In both cases one must wait as the process of creation unfolds.

It is the process of suffering that opens the door necessary for man to begin to search and to use reason to discover the Truth that can set man free and discover the lost sense of innocence!

Nature, Natural Law, Reason – Lessons Speak

As with natural law and nature each generation must wait for an encounter with being crushed and broken as the necessary birth pains to encounter the birth of new life!

Only man can come to understand – he must begin to cultivate and subdue himself for this birth of the communion of unity with the spirit to occur within persons both male and female.

Truth Buried along the Journey to New Life:

Man created in the image of God in the beginning.  Communion, the Body and Blood of Christ sent to teach through suffering speaking and dying to open the doorway to the discovery of new life more abundant!

The Rights of the People: The Choice:

The Potential of a Blank Piece of Paper:

A blank piece of paper is empty.  It openly awaits and serves as pure potential to inscribe a message yet written to communicate thoughts hidden in ones mind.  It has no history, values, principles, rules or guidelines.  It is an opportunity to sort through ideas, hopes, and dreams while entering the battleground of discovering  and engaging with the spirit of Truth!

Modern man and America are at War with the Truth!  It is a War between the creature and the creator.   It is the War explained “In the Beginning” and just who owns the “Tree of Knowledge, Good and Evil”!  A story that precisely provides a God given basic Truth called “Free Will”!

Spirit and flesh who is in control?  Emotions and logic who is in control?  Yes it is the War between the Spirit and the Flesh!!  Who is winning in 2022?  Yes it sure looks like the Flesh – yes the Flesh appears to be winning!

The Declaration of Independence and the Constitution

Oh yea and then there was this Declaration of Independence and Constitution paper thing!  And just what does it say?  Not your opinion or mine!  At what cost were those words written on a blank piece of paper? Just exactly what do the words placed upon a blank sheet of paper say?  And and does modern man have a clueBlood the cost humans were willing to pay – real blood and real tears!  Hearts torn not just a little!  Should we even pay any attention to these words in 2022?  Or do modern humans have insights sufficient to throw away the words written on a blank paper many years and generations ago?

One Flesh – United – Do we any longer have any Idea what it Means:

Are all people are created “Equal”!  Are we confused?  The word on the Blank paper is “Equal” not “Equitable”Endowed by the “Creator” not manIndividual Rights No Government may infringe upon!  Am I allowed to speak these words today which were long ago written on a blank paper?  Does our modern government now support a new religion based upon the creature versus creator?  Seems so!  The “Pronoun” Religion — Prohibited by sacred words written long ago!  Who is being sacrificed at the altar of the Pronoun Religion?

The Pronoun Religion has been Elevated to the Status of Law:

Some assume this was written for the reader, when in fact the written Word carries the Spirit of Life / Truth for which I was created in the first place.  It’s desired destination is the eyes and ears of those who I love even tough many may demand that I not speak!  No more sermons from Jesus Christ was clearly communicated through His crucifixion long ago!

To my Grand Children:

My spirit cries out – sometimes in real tears!  Before you were born and even as you were formed in your mothers womb the God of Life was shed to assure that the spirit of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness were birthed as well!

Least Understood is the Pursuit of Happiness:

Life provides the opportunity to search and discover ancient Truths.  Your spirit cries out from deep within searching to discover the gifts buried within your body and soul!  Precisely and Uniquely your own at the moment of conception – the implantation of your soul hidden in your body.  A closely guarded secret by to those who seek to replace the creator with self.    The secret of happiness is found in the creators spirit of Truth!  It was for this Truth I was destined to reveal!  I would gladly give my life so you might encounter the mystery of life and the fountain source where the the thirst for happiness is found!

The War of Good versus Evil from Antiquity Continues

From this formerly blank paper leaps hope the tears I shed from the collision of God’s Truth with the demons who sought from the “Beginning” to lead humanity to replace the owner of that Tree in the Garden with Man himself.  If Man owns the Tree then the Spirit of Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness lead mankind down the road to hatred and division – clear symptoms of the Satan’s War is being successfully waged against the creator’s Plan for the Salvation of man!

Where Hope Hides:

Yes it is!  It is buried in your soulYou were born for this day and this particular War.  As Jesus told His disciples every time he encountered them — “Do not be afraid and Peace be with you“!  Turn your Spirit to me, I am at your side always and yes faith and trust are the gifts freely given for you to find your way Home!  Yes God loves you and yes He does – He calls you by your most beloved name!

The Stain – The Stain – the Spirit Hidden in the Stain Triggers a Pause to Reflect.

Hey all!  Took a ride to a property I purchased in 2005.  34 + beautiful acres resting on the side of Pine Mountain running east -west across Georgia.  As I drove up the grassy road I passed by Walnut Trees I planted about 15 years ago.  Behold I saw Walnuts hanging in a few trees.  My spiritual brain began immediately to digest the sight before my eyes!

Oh my – the journey that followed:

I stopped – got out of my truck and began picking up fallen walnuts .  Some were still green and as many where in the process of turning black.  Before long I had a bucket full of walnuts.  Time to head for home.  On the way my mind raced back to the days of my young when my father stopped in front an old house that had a huge Walnut Tree near the street.  There the ground was covered with fallen walnuts.  My dad loved walnuts and we quickly began collecting those fallen walnuts covered with green and black husks.

Again — My Oh My – much later (too late) I would recall my dad’s warning! Oh yes he did!

When I arrived home, I rushed into the house and to my trusty computer!  Search “Video – how to de husk walnuts”.  Remove that green and turning black shell within which the walnut is protected as it matures.  The video showed the walnuts being placed in water and rigorously stirred in a process to remove the husks.  Simple – I should have studied much more!!

You Guessed It – yes I did!  into a bucket of water went the newly fallen walnuts!

Let them soak a while – patients is called for!  But this day patients was in short supply!  Yes I did – you bet into the water went my hands to fetch and peel each walnut!  I discovered the ones turned black peeled the easiest.  The green ones no such luck.  After about 15 minutes I pulled my hands out of the water to BEHOLD!!!  Black fingers and palms!  Oh Oh – what does one do??  Oh yea – my dad’s ancient warning jumped into my mind!  Too Late??

Oh – Removal of husks multiplied by removal of stain with yet to come removal of the shell just to discover and encounter the treasure hidden within!

Back to the computer I raced!  My imagination was running wild thinking of what my wife would have to say!  You betcha!!   Vinegar, hydrogen peroxide, lemon juice, vegetable oil – all concoctions to rid the stain – yes the ingrained stain to my fingers and hands.  The trouble she is a brewing from the haste to discover and encounter the walnut nut – hidden inside the shell covered by by the husk which turns the water into a black stained soup – which is resistant to almost everything!  Yikes!  I am a goner!

The Stain the Pain:  Guaranteed Pause to Reflect on the Stain:

The Holy Spirit me wonders doth follow me around for the laughs I insight.   Looking at my stained hands I began to grasp and digest the spiritual secrets and treasures hidden in God’s creation of the Walnut tree and my story – a human nature story.  A walnut has two protective hard covers within which it can safely grow and mature!  Hmmm!  Kinds like us humans!  We too need a protective shell as we grow and mature.  But hey the Walnut has two protective layers.  You betcha!  Hmmm?  To get to the heart and treasure of the walnut hidden within one must find a method to remove two different protective covers!  One which by nature will deteriorate if left alone and the second not so easy to remove!  My oh my!  A new skill set!  Er!  Maybe – could it be an ancient skill set??

to be continued ……..

Staring and Contemplating the stain to my fingers and hands cause me to reflect upon the difficulties we humans have communicating.  It is as though there is a hidden protective cover to avoid an encounter with another who expresses themselves in a way that threatens our self image.

Nonverbal Communication – It Works

The Gospel for Sunday – Catholic – April 3, 2022.  John 8:1-11.

The Scribes and Pharisees brought Jesus a woman caught in adultery!  Hey – where’s the guy?  Oh heck darn – I have to remember it is the spirit hidden in the story that is the point.  So what was it about the woman??? Well, women back in the day had no status or power!

It was a man’s world – right?? Oh, and today no change???  Ha ha we have a man winning the woman’s swim race in 2022! Testimony Truth turned Upside down? Modern man has set women back how many years??? Where did the feminist go? Is it safe to say the NCAA leaders are just like the folks we are speaking of in this old old old Gospel? Pretty much cowards I would say!

Just when are we going to see some real men and womanly courage arise? Oh yeah, the terms male and female not allowed to be spoken!  Just who is it that will have the courage to stand up and speak up? Democrats?  Joe the Devout Catholic? Nancy the say what Catholic? Oh my – who are they today? AND just where’s the Catholic Bishops hiding??

Bad boy – I am not supposed to be asking those questions!

The unspoken spiritual point:

Women in Jesus’s day had no status – indeed, they were the lowest of the low – well except for children! The people of His day confronted Jesus and thought they could trick Him into saying words that would get Him in real trouble! They thought they set him up wonderfully! Yep – just can’t fail!

So, what did He do when they challenged Him to reply to their setup question? What did they do? Maybe better said: what did Jesus do to help defeat themselves?  Well, he defeated them without speaking a word. Yikes – silence is a deadly weapon! Instead, He bent down – lower than the lowly woman they brought before Him to be publicly be humbled! He bent down lower than she and said not a word!

He taught them by what He did!

And He made them wait! They had to begin to question themselves. What the heck is He doing? It had to infuriate their pious attitudes and challenge the spirit that lives within! Oh my – now what is He doing? Looks like writing in the sand.

The Sand:

Where is that? Oh – on the earth – yep, the earth! Darn – What? What was He thinking? In the Beginning – man was made from the what???? Do we know the answer? Does from dust to dust have any meaning in the modern world? He was silently yet powerfully speaking!

After a very very long and frustrating pause – He finally spoke up!  You who are without sin – YES, that awful word “SIN” – can cast the first stone! Oh my Oh my Oh my! Yes it was the eldest who left first!!! Wisdom seems to be married to age! I can identify – yes I can!  The elderly knew instinctively without a great deal of thought they were guilty of the modern day awful word “SIN”!

Then – yes even then the younger folks had to begin to ask themselves – what the heck? Why are they leaving? Yep, it took a little time – yes it did – silence speaks and penetrates pride! It is a spiritual thing, you know – it’s a spiritual message. Can you see it? Any chance your spirit works?

Finally, even the hardest of heart – you know, those with the stiffest necks – yes even they had to begin to depart from the presence of Truth!

Disney are your ears open and do they work – are you listening?

Talk about hard hearts and stiff necks – Oh my! People who use imagination to destroy Truth – consequently, there is this very special place reserved and set aside for them!

Only then did Jesus stand up – “Has no one condemned you.” He asked the lady with no power.  “No one sir,” she responds! “Neither do I condemn you,” says the Lord! – Wow!

Now the punch line the modern world seeks to erase!!!!! READY?

Oh so very many miss the whole spiritual point! Yes, folks it is obvious the modern world misses it! “Go and sin no more.”  Oh my – what the hey! What are some people at Disney going to do?

If I don’t go to Disney again – could it send a non verbal message? Yep, it could be powerful.  Disney does not create or own children or the family! Keep on sinning and we are promised a proper reward! Hell and the Devil anxiously await our answer!

Memorial Judy 2022

Indiana Shooting Hoops

When I was a teenager I used to shoot baskets on the play ground across the street from St Joseph grade school ion Mishawaka. Indiana the Hoosier Hysteria State, it was in my soul. I was a really good shooter. Won many games of 21 and “HORSE”. One day an older kid showed up on the playground to shoot baskets. I discovered he was pretty darn good at shooting hoops. As we played games I became frustrated because he could shoot as well as I did but just a bit better. Gosh darn it he would win. He lived in the house on the alley next to the play ground. I new John because we both had paper routes and paper routes teach work ethics. Later in life I would find this fellow John would find his way back into my life.

The Home Town Alley:

On this same alley lived another kid. His name was Orville McIntyre. His father was killed in World War II. We used to play a lot of hoops games during the summer months. Later during the school year he told me was working as a skate boy at the Bock Roller rink and wanted me to come with him. One day while we were shooting hoops, Judy Hartman walked down the alley to her home on another corner of the alley. Following her was another younger girl. Orville told me she was a daughter of the Bock’s Roller rink. Oh my what lies ahead?

Bock’s Roller Rink / Music Dance:


Somehow I managed to find my way to Bock’s Roller Rink. This is where I first encountered Judy Bock. She was an excellent skater, in fact far far better than that. She skated with a graceful flow and powerful. In those days the rink had an organist in the evenings. During each evening they had special couple dance skates. I still remember the Waltz and the Fox Trot. Every once in a while Fred Back would skate with his daughters. It was just beautiful. I can still see them. Yea Fred had another daughter. Her name was Lynn. We managed to become boy friend and girl friend. Everyone in the rink knew when we had a spiff. Lynn would sit in a corner of the rink and not skate. Oh boy am I in trouble now.

Life’s Rocky Road Fast Forward:

Fast forward, Judy gets married and before long she has her first child – Kim. Somebody put rocks in the road? I don’t know what happened but just it happened and divorce followed.
After high school and a couple years in college I joined the air force. After being assigned my first station I returned home and in January of 1966 we were married. Funny how things occur.

Military Service – Air Force and He’s Back:

While I was busy playing Air Force duties this guy John (from shooting basketballs) somehow came onto the seen without my knowledge. The next thing I know Judy and John are getting hitched in May 1966. Later another baby shows up – she is named Kelly.

A True Art Form handed Down:

I can still remember the the grace of flow of Judy’s skating – I observed a kind of sparkle that radiated from her as I observed Judy skate. Oh Yes, I saw it in Judy’s kids. But so much more than that. I see it today in Kim and Kelly’s kids – the grand kids and great grand kids. It is the sparkle of new life sparkle that is enhanced by surviving a struggle and a trip through the valleys of tears. It is a sparkle that shines ever more brightly where the one who discovers it finds strength, courage and yes grace that can only be found after surviving life’s trials. Abundant blessing if one can only open the spiritual door.

Catholic – A Call to Service – ND Hats:


I am a Roman Catholic and was Ordained a Deacon in 1995. Funny how John who shot baskets with me on the play ground across the street from St. Joseph School eventually went to work for the Sisters on the Hill in Mishawaka. And then he became an regular usher at the University of Notre Dame. Is he Catholic? Do you know catholic means universal? John would send me Notre Dame baseball hats – really nice hats. He may not know it but I wore those hats until my wife secretly threw them out.

Spiritual One Flesh – the Family:


Things one remembers! Judy and John were the symbol of the “one flesh” found in the book of Genesis. Their children are gifts of new life and they themselves have created renewed life. Precious beyond imagination are those lives. Sparkle is the word I use. Yes I see sparkle – in the midst of the sparkle I see Hope beyond imagination. It is a spiritual thing that requires eyes and ears that have traveled troubled rocky roads to the depths of ones bones where one finally encounters gifts and talents hidden from the view of human eyes and ears.

To be Born Again – Death necessary to birth New Life:

To be born again one must die. Death is not an end! A grain of wheat must be crushed and broken before it become flour and only then has the potential to birth the bread of life. A grape must be crushed and broken as well to give up the precious juices with the potential to become the finest of wines to drink. Both must die in order to birth abundant New Life.

Crushed and Broken Open the Hidden Door:


Life is about small deaths necessary to create the potential for new life and life ever lasting. Hidden in the story of life are crushing memories and moments necessary to open the only doors where one can discover talents and gifts planted and hidden in the beginning.

Tears – the Water of Baptism – Cleaning ones soul – Rejoice:

Tears are a sign of being born again where the waters of baptism wash our spirits clean to refresh our souls preparing us to continue the journey on the road to new life. As hard as it is this day might be! Rejoice and be Glad

Death Opens the Doorway that sets one free:

Death can not swallow up Life. Death can only set one free to soar on the wings of dove.

Yes, no matter your struggle, God really does love you!

The Disrupt er:

The great disrupt er is necessary to create the necessary mixture to convert toxic material into a breath of fresh air for new life.

Conversion – Toxic to New Life

My son installed a air pump system for our lake. It includes a pump on the shore line, a long hose that reaches to the middle of the lake, an anchor with air dispensers attached.

Whats it Take – A Disrupt er

The design of the air dispensers to to disrupt material laying on the bottom of the lake which accumulated over the years. What I didn’t know is the water at the bottom of the lake becomes toxic over time due to lack of movement or current at the bottom. Fish and other life that requires can not exist within this toxin.

Purification and Conversion

The process of purification requires the material be disrupted and floated to the surface where the air combined with sun light magically gradually converts the toxin into life supporting nutrients. Warning the process must be done incrementally to prevent contaminating the whole lake and killing all the life.

Toxins – Hidden Within

Nature provides interesting analogies for the human condition as well. We humans also have toxin laying below the surface we often do not address. A great analogy is the story of Jesus Christ. He came to testify to the Truth. He confronted within authorities of the church and states resistance to a reflection upon the Truth Jesus came to proclaim. As it were, poison existed within the human family during Jesus time. The human natural resistance was so strong Jesus the Truth proclaimed was crucified for testifying to the Truth which contained the potential spiritual life giving nutrients humankind desperately needed.

Jesus was a disrupt er!

Sign, Symbol, Message or Chance – Hidden Message

Anyone care to help me reflect upon and try to solve a message hidden in a messenger? A few days ago a white pigeon showed up at my back door. It was wondering around near the steps pecking at the grass, greens and the ground. It was pecking at plants and the ground obvious to me the bird was searching for something to sustain it’s life!

A Pure White Pigeon – a Dove – a Messenger with a Hidden Message:

The arrival of this bird created for me a thirst for answers as I found myself being pulled into deeper and deeper reflection. These are not ordinary times are they? And this was no ordinary bird. In fact it was a white homing pigeon. And just why did this bird choose come to my house of all the homes in my neighborhood to stop? There are at least fifty plus homes just in my local neighborhood and many others in the local city area.

Why My House?

Let me help you a little and explain my what caught my interest and curiosity. I am an unusual man of sorts. I have raised and raced homing pigeons from the time I was boy all the way to the 1950’s. But not only that, but I am rapidly approaching my 25th anniversary as an ordained Catholic Deacon. Perhaps one can begin to detect that I may see things in both a spiritual and physical perspective light that many folks wouldn’t necessarily have a clue exist. And I must admit that I have been reflecting more than a little upon this chance arrival and even this may an understatement.

Discern – Write it down – Reflect:

Fact is something is pestering me to write this down and ask for help! I wonder if there is anyone out there with who is willing to take the time to join me in reflecting and discerning the message hidden in this unexpected arrival? And then — is there someone brave and with the courage to take a risk and share the message this reflection triggered?

I already knew what I needed to know but didn’t know it:

Like the rest of you living life, teaches many lessons and often one can not digest at the time they are first learned. What I will share has been learned and taught through nature and in numerous spiritual reflections. In 2011 I discovered I had already been taught as a kid what I need to know, but I just couldn’t connect the dots to know, I already knew what I needed to know – I just didn’t know I already knew it!

The Sign and symbol of the bird. So what is it? It is white pigeon. It has wings and has the freedom to fly away. And it is a symbol of a dove spoken about in the stories of scripture from almost the beginning. Hidden to many are the symbols of scripture in the creation of the bird itself. Noah’s ark, angles with wings appearing such as Gabriel, Rapheal, and Michael. The spirit of God descending like a dove upon Jesus as he came out of the Jordan river.

Multiple Secrets –> Hidden in the Symbol yet easily available for deeper inspection:

Long ago I knew a Pigeon has ten primary flight pins (feathers) that serve to propel it through the air and with the velocity to escape it’s enemies gifted with stealth techniques. Could these feathers represent the ten commandments if kept can save one from an enemy stealthy hidden in the consequences?

Power of 12 – Hidden Message:

These birds have twelve tail feathers. Takes just a little more than a casual look to learn this fact. Hum – the number twelve – twelve months, twelve tribes, and yes the twelve apostles the leaders of the church a very rich symbol. And one who studies flight knows the tail feathers have a purpose. They serve as a rudder that guides. Combine the realty of the dynamics of flight, make possible unbelievable maneuvers which enhance the birds ability ability to escape it’s enemies.

Oil – Anointing – Hidden Message:

Yes, there is more! The bird has an oil gland at the base of it’s tail. Almost everyone has seen a bird preening but do you know how important that is? The birds uses it’s beak to rub the oil gland and thereby is able to spread a thin layer of oil all over it’s feathers. This reality offers another opportunity for an in-depth reflection. The bird is preparing for survival, a real kind of War – like the the oil of salvation, the oil of the early Christian catechumen’s who used oil to cover themselves before entering the coliseum in preparation for the fight of their life.

This oil also provides some degree of water proofing and more importantly enhances the bird’s ability to slip through the air most efficiently again enhancing it’s ability to escape it’s enemy.

Hang in There:

Hang with me a while longer. The bird has a white wattle on it’s nose or beak. It is in the shape of a heart. The color of the wattle immediately communicates the health of the bird. When a bird is healthy the color of the wattle is egg white – no yellow shade – the color of a fertilized egg. Nature – God’s creation is amazing!

The Heart of the Matter – Hidden Message – Search for Home – The Promised Land:

Scientist theorize the wattle is the primary organ the bird uses navigate and find it’s way home. I can testify that almost anywhere you take the a homing pigeon it will find home. It just needs a little practice while growing up. Homing pigeons in fact have a rich history of being willing to sacrifice their life to find home and they mate for life! They have been used in many past wars to communicate critical information upon which troops lives depended.

Now that I have taken you back to the 1950’s lets start from the beginning!

Messengers with Wings:

In scripture Angles appeared to many and they served as messengers with wings and came in the form of a dove. Why again did this bird show up at my back door? Of all the homes in the neighborhood it came to my back door. My back door happens to be the doorway through which many pets who are not our pets arrived and took up residence.

I am also the only ordained preacher in the neighborhood who also currently raises and races homing pigeons. Could this bird have known I was the most likely to recognize it’s need and it’s message?

Have I presented sufficient details that someone will be willing to embark upon a reflection journey to discover the message hidden in this story?

Use it or Lose it – Message Hidden:

I was easily able to pick the bird up though is was capable of flying away. Could this be a message I was chosen and trusted to care for the birds life?

I could now inspect the bird more closely having developed skilled hands at detecting the health of the bird almost instantly. I forgot to mention a healthy homing pigeons breast feels like one of those small footballs we boys used on the play grounds in the 1950’s. It has a supple feeling – not hard – but firm. Funny a healthy homing pigeon in your hand feels like a football you could throw and it would fly!

Well, this bird breast had suffered atrophy. Atrophy is what happens when one stops using a muscle or has overused the muscle without sufficient nourishment and rest. One just becomes weaker. A sure sign the bird was in trouble and needed some tender loving care! The flight feathers were in good shape and all ten were there.

Hidden Message = 12 Tail Feathers – Rudder – Guide – (12-4) Oh Oh!

Oh Oh, there were four tail feathers missing! Four of Twelve were missing! How to interpret the mystery. I have been involved in racing pigeons over 60 years! It is a sure sign the bird has been attacked by it’s enemy who seeks to take it’s life! A hawk during an attack will extend it’s claws and often only gets the tails feathers which then become detached from the bird saving it’s life!

Confusion here! Four tail feathers are MIA! Four of Twelve is a third. What message does this communicate about the Twelve? The Hawk got them? Yet the bird survived without them! The voice in my head says please pay attention! Where are the twelve today? Where is the Hawk? Are 1/3 of the Bishops MIA?

One is Black as in Sin – Hidden Message:

The next finding was a little more disconcerting. Oh Oh! Of the eight tail feathers remaining one was about half black. The only feather on the bird with black was a tail feather. This sign is perhaps more difficult to discern. Could this be a which do you want first message? The Good news or the Bad?

I must confess, even I have been challenged with some black markings from time to time. Sin can not be denied even in the church! And the Good News is still the Good News. The one who was sent came for the sinner so the sinner would come to understand the message that the sender treasured the sinner so much the sender was freely willing to sacrifice the greatest treasure.

Now that was what I learned in Catholic grade school in the 1950’s. A run on sentence!! Oh my!

So again why did this bird show up at my house??? Does anyone have a clue?

Who am I? I was called to follow a man who came to testify to the truth and people didn’t like the way he preached. I was called to follow a man named Steven who served at tables and the next thing you hear he is out in the street preaching and the people liked his preaching so much they stoned him to death!

“No more sermons from the deacon” = “Shut Up”. Did this bird come to my house so I would stop talking and be quite?

And just what about you? Why does it appear my church is in hiding? Why are we afraid?

I took the bird to my pigeon loft. It is located on 220 acres! I go to care for that bird every day! Every day the wind whisper’s in my ears God’s creative genius and that everyone of us was created in the image of God with a creative nature to adapt and change even as the war rages around us!

And you Say?

What message is that white bird bugging me to speak? What has happened to the tail feathers that are supposed to guide and show us how to use the creative gifts of imagination, truth, sacrifice, courage while the muscle of the bird has suffered atrophy?

So what say you?